Wishful Thinking

12:03

Its 11:44 and this is what was going on in my mind.

I’m looking at your pictures right now and I realize how much time has passed since then. Two years ago, I didn’t notice you. Two years ago, you were nothing to me.

A minute has passed.

I realize the memories that we shared since the day we became close. Remember our snorkeling trip? Probably you won’t but I still remember each and every detail of that day; how you leaned your head on my shoulder and slept that made your face the cutest thing I’ve ever laid my eyes upon. Also on that trip, I first got to hold your hands. Our hands were interlaced as we swam in the ocean and saw the beauty of the corals and fishes underwater. It was the time that nothing else mattered. It was just you, me and that perfect moment.

Another five minutes were added to the clock.

I remember the day how we became bestfriends. Honestly, it was such a childish thing that even I myself isn’t really proud of. You talked to me online and asked for favor. You needed someone to help you on some writing contest and I said I’d help you on one condition and that was to be your bestfriend. But nevertheless, it was a decision I never regretted.

Tick-tock. Two minutes have gone by.

The days and months seemed to pass in a blur but at a certain point., it became awfully slow. It was the part where I was being defeated by jealousy, the moment where I felt too much pain. That was the time where I needed to make a decision. It was the time I confessed my feelings for you. Embarassingly, I didn’t start the confrontation. You passed me a note during class asking me if I was okay. And I told you I was and you replied and it went on for a few times. As I recieved the note again, it was something I didn’t expect: “Do you love me?” I replied yes and you replied with another:”More than friends?” And I hesitantly said yes. The time I waited for your reply was something that felt like hours. And as our classmate, passed that simple piece of paper once again, it held the climax. “Let’s just be bestfriends, forever. Okay?” At first, I couldn’t understand. It needed some time to be absorbed. Then, it hit me.

Five minutes have gone and I’m already holding on to my heart.

It’s 12:03 and the feeling’s like my whole world is falling apart.